ello! =)

watched Wall-E. lol. cute and nice. I would suggest watching it with your lover. has some touching but not VERY touching scenes.

wanted to catch DeathRace, but time uncompatible.

I quit the Part-time job as A Graphic Designer. lol. many reasons. but I dont think all the transportation money is worth my effort for going down to the company. simple too expansive since NOW i'm paying for my own transportation fee.. plus my handphone bills monthly. which all my earnings go to and left me with pathetic 20dollars a month. I'm have other lobangs, just tt I dont like to commit.. I prefer flexibality where I could easily arrange my timings whenever I need to.. still looking. lol. and thanks ahma for giving me the info.. I wanted to jump into this Waitressing Job but when i read that I need to promote WINE~ oh gosh.. lol not only I dint like the taste of Red wine, I dont fancy a tiny lil bit of it.. how about Chivas? Johnny Walker? lols.. my mom said, before I go work, I'll get drunk myself. =="

my dad just flew back from Manila. =) I'm happy, but sad I dint get to eat with him tonight. and I'm so glad to eat mom's cooking, though I'll be missing eating with Jeff. cause tonight, mom cooked my favourite! Salmon fish! and new technique! we watched this cooking show tgt, and mom decided to try to put shreds of lemon and lime skin onto the salmon. and WOW! taste even better! =D gonna tell her tml.. xD I love mom's cooking.. and for that, u could see my size. haha! I wouldnt go hungry at home.. and mom wont allow any of us to go out of the house with an empty stomach.. I love her. =D

ah, so much tt's happening.. I spent 4hours sitting in McDonalds, talking to strangers and starring into blank space... just to think through properly.. lols.. of course I was restlessly bored and got Jeff to entertaint me.. and thanks so much! maybe tt's y I loved him.. haha. finally I ordered a small fries and a hot apple pie with my pathetic 4dollars. tt's all I want to spend on McD tt day. and those waitress in the fastfood restaurent thought I was an invigilator to rate how much stars should I give to them. I would say, service damn good. =) better than any McD outlet. probably I'm in Orchard. lol. how I wish I could really go on a good backpacking trip with Jeff. it's always been my wish to go out of this country and travel around with him. this way, I would know whether can I really live with him in his house or not. but I wouldnt put so much hope.. haha. I'm more afraid of the outcome. and MOM! I will move out! dont throw me out before I'm ready! =X

I been sample and freebies and sale and offer chasing tt when David started calling me "auntie"! omg. I just mortified! I need to save dude. and he's gotten into TP! great! how's the botak calling? I was thinking, suddenly all my male friends are going into NS.. so lonely. esp closer ones, find who to talk? NS sure damn tired.. davs asked me.. how long do we known each other. lolx. nearly 2 years? and we're going to meet! I was happy at first, but paranoid in the end. I dont wish our friendship to be like others.. meet already then never talk. rarely people would talk to u because their expectation has been lowered.. hoping he wont bring up this topic again. hehe =X

BELLY DANCING! sometimes I wish the instructor could coach me alone but she has her eyes on me.. lol hopefully could be among the budding ones.. need more flexibility.. not to say I want to dance this infront of oogling male, unless it's no choice, but cause this dance really celebrates women's curves! and I dare to say, FAT FLESHY women dance belly dance the best! the sticky ones can dance, but it look as if some skeleton are dancing in your closet. =X I'm not joking. when they shake, NOTHING to jiggle! and I like how this auntie dance. she has really wide hips.. jsut like mine. and everytime either I following her or she following me. lol at times we both were wrong! and my instructor would laugh! zzzzzzzz. wanted to join Ballroom dance, but I'm afraid of asking Jeff along.. neither do I want him to see me in the arms of another man.. so I guess I stick to dances which are solos..

I wanted to try hiphop.. not breaking though cause I aint fit, purely hiphop.. my sister said they dance like robots.. lolx! I wanted to try but cant seem to have any classes that are not filled with people..

finally.. IPSA stuff DONT WORK! though they claimed this and that.. I went to their Opening of Autum / Winter Private Party at Tangs Orchard yesterday.. gotten free makeup consultation.. my eyeshadow still crease! aiyoh! but I learnt much reg putting on eye makeup.. maybe gonna try at home.. and see how.. and I bought the liquid liner for NOTHING! mom dont like see me put liquid eyeliner, cause she says made my eye look much smaller, I disagree. maybe drawing a finer line and putting on more eyeshadow will do.. yet to try it on cause I'm so lazy! =X haha! and my fake eyelashes! so tired of putting them on. can I just get an extension? =X haha too much money to spend!

this is the first time I'm featuring a video here, cause I hate how lag it will be. but this, really a must watch video. very touching. It touched my heart and I hope it did touch yours too..

have a nice day~

hehe. couldnt resist but to blog cause I had a very funny day today.

woke up. went Pizza Hut to eat Brunch as well as to celebrate mother's birthday. no cake. no present. no cards. nothing at all. dint feel like a birthday celebration. lol.

went up to Kopitiam to use the coupon. ate ice kacang, cendol, kopi breakfast set and chengtang.

walked around. bought another Shoe! initially wanted to get this professional looking black shoe, but too bad, my size sold out already. are u kidding me?! I'm size 40! omg! how many giant foots out there? lol. was deciding whether to buy the white princessy look or the silverish goldenish which gives the glamours look.. my sister decides that I dont give the princessy vibe, rather glamours suits me better. hehe. nice nice shoe. which is REALLY walkable. cant wait to wear it already! erjie tried on this gladiator shoe.. nice~ but I have fat thick legs.. not advisable for me to get THAT one.. =(

went over to MoshiMoshi. telling jie which one I should get. the normal conventional ones which is so common or spend the same amount of money on a more designed ones? lol. I dunno. saving 30bucks for it. as long as it's silver =) I'm willing to spend on it. haha! if only I could afford GOLD.

walked over to JohnLittle. finally they are having sales again. hehe. 20% off storewide. grab my Maybeline define eyeliner, luckily it's waterproof! cant wait to try it on too. but not gonna wear it to school. I'm lazy. xD bought Fasio Point makeup remover. heard rave reviews about the old generation, so I'm trying on a new generation. cant wait to get dressed up! spent alot today. haha.

rushed back to put my shopping lots, and went for Belly Dancing class. today lesson was my forte. lol. hip movements. I'm weak at my shimmies. lol. just cant do it well. was hoping my teacher could teach us the whole set of dance instead.. it would be more fun that way.

rush home and went out again for dinner. eat until very full. went to Jurong Point with erjie. went in Crystal Jade on the 2nd floor to have the complimentary dessert. haha. we need minimum purchase so we decided to get the chinese tea instead. haha! total bill, $0.95! haha! my sister even joked that this bill will break their record for having the lowest bill ever!

we walked around again.. Charles and Keith.. try on the shoes.. since I bought a new shoe, I dont think I would want to spend another 30bucks for another shoe.. maybe next week. xD walked over to converse.. and to world of sports.. then finally to another Crystal Jade at level 3.

we sat in and ordered some fried stuff and a free bean curd. haha. nice. was very full already. talking crap with erjie. lol. she's my sunshine. haha! always make me happy. total bill, $3.30 better than the previous one. hehe.

went Bata to check out the shoes. nothing suits me. went home. super full.. so tired. told mom about our cheepo adventure. haha! my mother was laughing her head off while looking at that $0.95 bill from Crystal Jade. =) we made history man.

so tired. tomorrow still need to meet up with Ms Janny for more FYP stuff. sian. still got so much assignment going on. and I'm not even started half of the pile yet! god really help me.. =(

ahh.. wanted to blog so much.. but hardly can find time. lol. I'm sacrificing my working and sleeping time to blog here. ==" really betahan. I wanna dao le.

this stress dint cost me to eat more.. it only cost me to shop more! I'm a shopaholic! yay! nowadays, rather windowholic.. haha. see this see that want this want that. no money buy and no time to buy. saw online some nice stuff that I want to get my hands on. haha. guess I'm coming up with another list of "I WANT THIS" =D

oh ya, thanks Johnson for ur gifts from Taiwan. =) was thinking why not buy me food from other countries? =X hehe.. he bought me 2shirts, which one I pass it on to Jeffrey cause it's BIG! one hair'cucuk'.. wasted cause I dont have super thick and long hair to 'cucuk' into la~~ dunno this guy know how to buy for ppl anot.. =X and a very sweet necklace. hehe. paris necklace.. dint get a chance to wear it cause it's so big! and it sits on the chest.. 0.0"! going france? =D buy me MORE! haha! thanks DUDE =P

babyDavs broke his wife. haha! he's buying a new wife soon..

my Jeffrey dear bought a NEW laptop. Acer brand. ( though I'm not much of a Acer fan ) and he dunno what to do with it. lolx. I'm crossing my fingers that he wont download all the games to play. lol. he got a 3-in-1 printer for free too.. how good was that deal man?

wanted to get my hands on the small laptop but realise, it's nothing much of a use since I'll be heavily graphic loaded.. might as well just get a MacBook can liao.. yeah. gonna get one with my salary when I got a job. of course, I wont be asking my parents to buy it for me.. haha. it's not a need, it's a want.

okay. I'm half dead here. flying off to my lala land~~

and I'm gonna miss the BEIJING OLYMPICS GRAND OPENING!! =(

got this survey from bestie's blog. kinda bored now.

1.The way to win your heart?
\\ those who know will know.. \\

2.What did you do last night?
\\ sleeping, crying, arguing, chatting on the phone, smsing ahma, thinking and thinking and thinking, lastly sick. \\

3.what is ur fav. thing to do?

\\ fadai and be alone \\

4.Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
\\ no. I'm looking for a understanding GIRLFRIEND. \\

5.One song that's meaningful to you?
\\ when you're gone - by Avril L. \\

6.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?
\\ whatever it takes to eat.. \\

7.Do you drink milk straight from the carton?
\\ I prefer from the carton though unhygenic \\

8.How long is your hair?
\\ below shoulder. some one wants my hair to be longer than tt unbearable length. \\

Do you like Batman?
\\ if he got the money and muscle. I dont see why not? \\

10.Who was the last person who told you they loved you?
\\ who else but tt bastard of mine? \\

11.Addicted to anything?
\\ cosmetics. totally! still learning though =D\\

13.Do you like anyone now?
\\ yeah \\

14.When was the last time you sang out loud?
\\ not since I broke down \\

15.What did you have for breakfast?
\\ none of ur concern \\

16.when is ur best b'dae celebration?
\\ i dint want to hope too much for my bday... \\

17.are you attached? who is that person?
\\ duh~ jeff lo.. \\

18.Can you cook?
\\ yeaps. I aspire to be a vegan cook. anyone who doesnt like veggie can fk off from my kitchen \\

19.Did you have a nap today?
\\ no. there's no time for nap \\

20.What was the reason you got in trouble last?
\\ I'm always in trouble. was never out. \\

21.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
\\ jeans definately. I'm a jeannie! \\

22.When is your birthday?
\\ 6th Jan \\

23.Do you swear a lot?
\\ I only swear when I'm fking not happy and angry and frustrated \\

24.Where did you get the shirt(s)you're wearing?
\\ my camp\\

25.Do you have any regrets?
\\ definitely. \\

26.What was your first alcoholic drink?
\\ cant rmb.. think was XO from wedding dinner \\

28.What color are your favorite shoes?
\\ metallic red tone \\

29.Who would you like to see right now?
\\ no one \\

30.Are you a social or antisocial person?
\\ definately antisocial. \\

31.Have the cops ever come by your house?
\\ no \\

32.Ever been in love?
\\ yes \\

33.Ever had braces?
\\ I dont have to. I have straight teeth. thanks to my father and his parents and their parents. I'm blessed. cause my ancestor did not cheat anyone of their money in their lifetime. thank you! \\

34.Who was the first person to really break your heart?
\\ first? ChengKai. my biggest crush of all. second? Jeffrey. my lover. \\

35.who do you treasure most now?
\\ I treasure my friends now.. \\

36.Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
\\ first? we broke up because everyone in sch assume that we're bf/gf. we lost contact a long time ago \\

37.Who was the last person to disappoint you?
\\ jeffrey \\

38.Do you trust people?
\\ i had walls. i dont trust ppl. \\

39.Who was the first person you talked to today?
\\ sister? \\

40.what do u wan to say to ur love ones?

\\ I love all of them. but I only hate my bf. lol. ( hate how much I love u - rihanna ) listen to that song dear. if u have time.  \\

yesterday or rather today, is a damn fucking sad monthsary.. i cried during our monthsary. how sad and pathetic. guess it was my hormones who's talking.. or rather the frustrated innerself.. dunno what the hell am I shouting for too..



he wont say those comforting yet protective words because he wasnt in "that" circle.. fancy bf telling me to protect myself instead of HE protecting me. I made a HUGE fuss about it.. only god knows what I'm thinking.. yeah. someone touched and I mean, the whole damn hand was touching my big huge butt and stroke my elephant thigh with so much gentle that I almost thought and WISH that It was Jeffrey who's doing the deed. from Dover to Jurong East. the horror. initially was okay, until he "moved" his little brother down there when his "brother" was leaning forward against my left beautiful butt. tt was pure gross. he proceed on to letting go of his secure hand which was holding on to the pole.. and lean hisbody againts mine so he wont fall when the train jerks, while I'm being sandwiched and breast-elbowed by another tall man infront. what am I suppose to do in this situation? before he left, he gentle remove his pervertic hands off my thigh and walk off just that. God.



initially dint want to tell my bf. maybe I shldnt have.



I rather tell my friend about it. at least they stand by me. thank you.



half-crying abt it, bf forgotten abt our monthsary.. I cant blame him. he's bz.



was chatting with bf. and messaging ahma at the same time. I found back my comfort, back in her. she had happy news with her. and I dont want to spoil her mood, so I dint tell her our problems then. I regretted neglecting them for him.. this mistake paid it's price.. and I'm truely regretting my action. hopefully my besties able to read this and I wanna apologise..

hopefully we could still have our girls day out.. and I promise.. it's all girls day out.. =) let's go clubbing! xD

to baba: SI BABA! die where le! =X get well soon! super fast recovery! =D still waiting for u to come singapore worh.. if I go Msia, tumpang ur kereta hor! xD

I just realise, nono, I realise long time ago.. we're of difference too much.. to him, is small matter. but to me, it MATTERS! things are getting too comfortable for each other.. we let loose of our inner monster. i hate it.

gonna keep myself EVEN BUSIER!
that's what JH told me.. did I tell u guys before? I admitted to him that I once, liked him? LOL! glad that he still IS my friend.. a friend that is free after august and rotting to death in his office.. =X soon, he'll see MR,BOTAK. david also seeing MR.BOTAK. so is QiQi! omg! suddenly, my guy friends all go botak.. lol!

I'm kinda curious how mr Deli look like in real life, despite being online friends for 3/4 years already.. amazing huh? you CAN find real friend through online.. just know how to pick.. another gentleman friend is Johnson.. =D the one who can really splurge on me, not with goods, but FOOD! *is that an insult??* haha.. but he's a man of his own world.. not even his gf can intrude into his world. lolx. stop smoking la! so smelly.. zzz and mr muscleman! been arranging and arranging meetup with him, but seems like neither of us are free.. no luck! mr deli's best friend is in SP. studying in the same Minor school as me. but, I NEVER SEE HIM IN SCHOOL!

ohhhh ya! yesterday I saw CS. omg. he's grinning from ear to ear. and I confirm he did took a few glance of me. unless my eye really cock. worst is, he's with a friend that bytch knows! gosh what a small world. and I dont get to see CK anymore.. he graduated.

ohh no. someone reminded me of BRAYANI! ==" wonder did he get back to his chio gf or not.. lost contact..

I wanna work! I wanna work work work! =D if time allows I wanna take more assignments.. or maybe work in other sector. hopefully I able to get through this sememster.. then next sem, i can work more often. then wont think nonsense anymore.